At the end of the utmONE Connect session, we were asked to write a letter to our future selves describing our current state of mind. We then sealed our letters in an envelope and handed them over to our Connection Leaders to hold onto until the end of the school year. It will be interesting to see how much I will have changed by next April!

future me

For those of you who are curious, here’s how my letter went:

Dear future me,

First of all, because you’re reading this, I’ll assume that you’re still alive and I would like to congratulate you for surviving your first year of university. This is probably your greatest achievement in life so far!

To be frank, I’m not quite sure if I will be able to find words that will accurately describe my current state of mind. My first week at UTM was exciting, interesting, but also exhausting. In high school, we didn’t do any work for two weeks or so as we were eased back into our school routine and I initially thought that the first lecture for each course would be similar and would just consist of the professor introducing himself/herself and explaining the syllabus. However, I soon realized that it wasn’t the case and we started tackling the courses’ core content right away. By Wednesday evening, my agenda was already filled with assignments; from reading two entire chapters of a voluminous textbook to writing a short essay due on Monday morning. I am sad to report that since Monday, I have spent every evening in the library, and there hasn’t been a night that has seen me get home before 9pm. On the bright side, I’m thrilled that I chose to attend an institution with a really nice (and brand new!) library which makes the thought of spending hundreds of hours there somewhat less unappealing. I already consider the “silent section” of the library to be my second home.

Despite the hard work required, I loved most of the lectures. I felt so privileged to be able to listen to fascinating lectures by professors who seemed to be very passionate about their respective fields of study. It seemed as if a whole new intellectual world had opened up and like a sponge, I tried my best to take in everything. Right now, my greatest insecurity is that I won’t meet the expectations that everyone else has set for me. Questions like “Do I really belong in a university?” and “What if I’m not intelligent enough to grasp complex concepts?” are starting to hover in my head. I hope to be able to get those thoughts out of my brain as soon as possible…

Good luck with the next 3 years of university!


Your past self

Now tell us: What would YOU write in a letter to your future self? 🙂